I don't post much about my personal life on social media ... but here I'll let it be known that I was offered a supervisor position for a therapeutic program this summer. And I accepted although I almost didn't even apply.
I have doubted myself in so many ways, not only about being qualified for this position, but in other areas of my life. Self-doubt is defined as a lack of confidence in one's self or abilities. Lacking confidence in myself is a challenge I've whispered to only my closest friends ... but it's SO REAL. Not everyday I feel like a #BossChick. I don't wake up with flawless skin, a clear and focused mind, or a flat tummy with curves from here to there.
But that doesn't stop me from being enough.
A close sister-friend of mine gifted me with a silver cuff bracelet that is engraved with the words "I AM ENOUGH". A daily affirmation, if you will, that reminds me that what I have to offer is enough. Professionally, I AM ENOUGH. Physically, I AM ENOUGH. Emotionally, I AM ENOUGH. And this isn't a statement of contentment with my current self; there's always room for growth and improvement. But WHO AM I to lack confidence in the woman God has so graciously made in His image?!
God has granted me so much mercy and favor on this journey that I cannot fathom doubting His workmanship. Experiences have empowered my story, trials have refined my testimony. In no way, shape, or form have I been perfected but only made to follow His perfect love; to humbly rest in His grace. I'm a masterpiece.
So when I hit submit on the application to become a supervisor in my agency, when I strive to reach 2 miles of cardio versus one, when I walk into my therapist's office with a vulnerable but brave demeanor ... I know that I AM ENOUGH. And this journey is full of blessings that doubt has tried to block one too many times.
I'm so glad I didn't give in.